autumn's monologue

2005-04-10T14:14:00.000+08:00

i never meant to be so cold

can't pretend that you're still mine, coz you're so far away.

my imagination's much worse, i never wanna know.

2005-03-31T10:31:00.000+08:00

Hey. Sorry I have not posted in a while. I'm just not in the mood to. Well. What happened, i don't know. It's so fuckin hot. I have to go to church in a couple of minutes, and it's SO fucking hot. I wanna go out, Starbucks for a smoke or two.

I miss her.

Later.
*wink*

2005-03-29T17:36:00.000+08:00

MARTIN IS A GAY NAME.

2005-03-29T17:32:00.000+08:00

i AM PISSED.

DO NOT FUCKING TALK TO ME ANYONE.

leche

2005-03-29T17:29:00.000+08:00

MARTIN IS A GAY NAME.

2005-03-26T16:38:00.000+08:00

WHAT WOMEN SAY. (HAHAHAHAHAHAH)

FINE This is the word women use to end an argument when they feel they are right and you need to shut up. Never use "fine" to describe how a woman looks - this will cause you to have one of those arguments.

FIVE MINUTES This is half an hour. It is equivalent to the five minutes that your football game is going to last before you take out the trash, so it's an even trade.

NOTHING This means "something," and you should be on your toes. "Nothing" is usually used to describe the feeling a woman has of wanting to turn you inside out, upside down, and backwards. "Nothing" usually signifies an argument that will last "Five Minutes" and end with "Fine"

GO AHEAD (With Raised Eyebrows) This is a dare. One that will result in a woman getting upset over "Nothing" and will end with the word "Fine"

GO AHEAD (Normal Eyebrows) This means "I give up" or "do what you want because I don't care" You will get a "Raised Eyebrow Go Ahead" in just a few minutes, followed by "Nothing" and "Fine" and she will talk to you in about "Five Minutes" when she cools off.

LOUD SIGH This is not actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A "Loud Sigh" means she thinks you are an idiot at that moment, and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you over "Nothing"

SOFT SIGH Again, not a word, but a non-verbal statement. "Soft Sighs" mean that she is content. Your best bet is to not move or breathe, and she will stay content.

THAT'S OKAY This is one of the most dangerous statements that a woman can make to a man. "That's Okay" means that she wants to think long and hard before paying you back for whatever it is that you have done. "That's Okay" is often used with the word "Fine" and in conjunction with a "Raised Eyebrow."

2005-03-26T16:29:00.000+08:00

tangina astig tong horoscope thingy.. hahahaha.

Taurus
Apr 20 - May 20

Virgo
Aug 23 - Sep 22

Horoscope Compatibility for TAURUS Perfect Partners: Virgo, Capricorn
Horoscope Compatibility for VIRGO Perfect Partners: Taurus, Capricorn

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. SAKTO. WAHAHAHA.

2005-03-26T16:19:00.000+08:00

hey. check this out. just stumbled upon it somewhere. i've highlighted those which caught me well.*wink*

WHAT GUYS WISHED GIRLS WOULD KNOW
2. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.
3. Learn to work the toilet seat: if it's up put it down.
4. Don't cut your hair. Ever.
5. Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not quests to see if he can find the perfect present, again!
6. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.
7. Sometimes, he's not thinking about you. Live with it.
8. Don't ask him what he's thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as navel lint, the shotgun formation and monster trucks.
9. Get rid of your cat. And no, it's not different, it's just like every other cat.
10. Dogs are better than ANY cats. Period.
11. Sunday = Sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.
12. Shopping is not a sport.
13. Anything you wear is fine. Really.
14. You have enough clothes.
15. You have too many shoes.
16. Crying is blackmail. Use it if you must, but don't expect us to like it.
17. Your brother is an idiot, your ex-boyfriend is an idiot and your Dad probably is too.
18. Ask for what you want. Subtle hints don't work.
19. No, he doesn't know what day it is. He never will. Mark anniversaries on a calendar.
20. Yes, pissing standing up is more difficult than peeing from point blank range. We're bound to miss sometimes.
21. Most guys own two or three pairs of shoes -- What makes you think we'd be any good at choosing which pair, out of thirty, would look good with your dress?
22. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers.
23. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.
24. Your Mom doesn't have to be our best friend.
25. Foreign films are best left to foreigners.
26. Check you oil.
27. Don't give us 50 rules when 25 will do.
28. Don't fake it. We'd rather be ineffective than deceived.
29. It is neither in your best intrest or ours to take the quiz together.
30. Anything we said 6 or 8 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. All comments become null and void after 7 days.
31. If you don't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.
32. If something we said can be interpreted two ways, and one of the ways makes you sad and angry, we meant the other one.
33. Let us ogle. If we don't look at other women, how can we know how pretty you are?
34. You can either ask us to do something OR tell us how you want it done -- not both.
35. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
36. Christopher Columbus didn't need directions, and neither do we.
37. Women wearing Wonder bras and low-cut blouses lose their right to complain about having their boobs stared at. <-- YES YES YES !!!!!
38. Consider Golf a mini-vacation from you. We need it, just like you do.
39. Telling us that the models in the men's magazines are airbrushed makes you look jealous and petty and it's certainly not going to deter us from reading the magazine.
40. The relationship is never going to be like it was the first two months we were going out.
AND FINALLY, THE NUMBER ONE RULE: 1. Don't rub the lamp if you don't want the genie to come out.

2005-03-26T16:07:00.000+08:00

Top 10 Rejection Lines Given By Women
(and what they actually mean)

10. I think of you as a brother.
(You remind me of that inbred banjo-playing geek in “Deliverance.”)

9. There's a slight difference in our ages.
(I don't want to do my dad.)

8. I'm not attracted to you in 'that' way.
(You are the ugliest dork I've ever laid eyes on.)

7. My life is too complicated right now.
(I don't want you spending the whole night or else you may hear phone calls from all the other guys I'm seeing.)

6. I've got a boyfriend.
(I prefer my male cat and a half gallon of Ben and Jerry's.)

5. I don't date men where I work.
(I wouldn't date you if you were in the same 'solar system', much less the same building.)

4. It's not you, it's me.
(It's you.)

3. I'm concentrating on my career.
(Even something as boring and unfulfilling as my job is better than dating you.)

2. I'm celibate.
(I've sworn off only the men like you.)

1. Let's be friends. (I want you to stay around so I can tell you in excruciating detail about all the other men I meet and have sex with. It's the male perspective thing.)

Top 10 rejection lines given by Men
(and what they actually mean...)

10. I think of you as a sister.
(You're ugly.)

9. There's a slight difference in our ages.
(You're ugly.)

8. I'm not attracted to you in 'that' way.
(You're ugly.)

7. My life is too complicated right now.
(You're ugly.)

6. I've got a girlfriend.
(You're ugly.)

5. I don't date women where I work.
(You're ugly.)

4. It's not you, it's me.
(You're ugly.)

3. I'm concentrating on my career.
(You're ugly.)

2. I'm celibate.
(You're ugly.)

1. Let's be friends.
(You're sinfully ugly.)

\HAHAHAHAHAH TOTOO YAN!!!

2005-03-26T15:37:00.000+08:00

1. kunwari hayop ka, ano ka?.: bird, parang bird ko, malake :)
2. kunwari halaman ka ano ka?.: rose.
3. kunwari cartoon character ka, cno ka?.: si aguiluz ng mulawin hehehehe
4. kunwari di ka pinoy, anung nationality mo?.: chinese, para malapet sa mga chinita LOL
5. kunwari last text na ng buhay mo, cnung tetext mo?.: baby ko
6. kunwari hollywood actor/actress ka, cno kamuka mo?.: brad pitt !!!
7. kunwari bayani k ng pilipinas, saan ka may rebulto?.: boracay wakeke
8. kunwari parte ka ng katawan, ano ka?.: seks organ :)
9. kunwari d ka pinanganak nung year na pinanganak ka, kelan ka pinanganak?.: nung 1985 para magka age nalang kami.. lol
10. kunwari prof ka sa school nyo, cno ka?.: balgos
11. kunwari presidente ka ng pilipinas,pandak ka ba?.: im 5 foot 11 sucka
12. kunwari alak ka, nung brand mo?.: pundadorrr
13. kunwari underwear ka, anu ka?.: t back.. para lagi akong malapet sa toot (hehehe)
14. kunwari inlove ka. kanino naman?.: keh rambaby ko
15. kunwari hindi ka anak ng nanay mo, kanino ka anak?.: anak ni tita ledg.. tangina sarap magluto amputa..
16. kunwari pokpok ka, san ka nakalarga?.: anywhere!!! ilaykdat! heheheheheheheh!
17. kunwari athlete ka, anung sport mo?.: humping hehehehehe
18. kunwari isa kang manager ng motel, anung motel ang minamanage mo?.: ano lang, anito.. o kaya biktorya kort..
19. kunwari sekyu ka, san ka nagbabantay?.: sa csa para madali ko mapatay si kupal
20. kunwari member ka ng banda, anung instrument mo?.: vocals ako chaka drams lol
21. kunwari nanay ka ng sarili mo, sino tatay mo?.: ??
22. kunwari si michael jackson ka, aamin ka ba?.: asa ka..
23. kunwari, syota mo si madam auring, pagmamalaki mo ba sya?.: i never dreamt of being archie.. hahahahaha..
24. kunwari di ka grumadwet sa school mo nung h.s, san ka grumadweyt?.: ewan
25. kunwari virus ka, anu ka?.: lagnat
26. kunwari martir ka, pano ka pinatay?.: namatay sa sarap :)
27.kunwari painting ka, sino nagpaint sayo?.: ung pintor
28. kunwari emoticonz ka, anu ka dun?.: ung ismaylie
29.kunwari si lupin ka, anung ninakaw mo?.: mga mata :) hahahahah
30.kunwari isinabuhay ang buhay mo, sino gaganap?.: siiiii.. bandolp.. taba ko eh. :)
31.kunwari fairytale ka, cno ka?.: prins tsarmine
32. kunwari totoo to, papayag ka ba?.: i love my life :)

2005-03-26T15:30:00.000+08:00

mmmmm

a girl who calls you baby faced
instead of
hot or sexy

who can't stand it when you hang up on
her and
calls right back

who would sit there for hours looking into
your eyes,

who doesn't care what you look like, but
what's inside counts the most,

Who looks at you with the twinkle in her
eyes and
kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips,

Wants to be with you in public, even ifyou wear
those old grass stained and ripped pants
with the bleached jersey like always,

the girl who is a constant
reminder ofyour happiness and joy,

who makes you
smile justby knowing she loves you back.

the girl who you give piggy back
rides to
in public and she still is in view of her
friends,while she gets off and you hear her
go: "you're the one for me, for always"

2005-03-26T12:17:00.000+08:00

the artist in the ambulance

late night, brakes lock, hear the tires squeal
red light, can't stop so i spin the wheel
my world goes black before i feel an angel lift me up
and i open blood
shot eyes into fluorescent white
they flip the siren, hit the lights, close the doors and i am gon
enow i lay here owing my life to a strangerand i realize that empty words are not enough
i'm left here with the question of just
what have i to show except the promises i never kept?
i lie here shaking on this bed, under the weight of my regrets.

2005-03-25T04:18:00.000+08:00

Wrong Sleeping Habits.

Lately i've been sleeping early and waking up waaaaaaaay too early. Today i slept at like 5 pm and woke up at 10 pm. I went online for a while then went back to bed at around 12 am. It's 4 am and i just woke up. I still wanna sleep but i keep on craving for food. Tangina I'm turning out to be a glutton.

Kat and I haven't talked the whole day, except for that 15 minutes around 10 AM. She isn't texting too, i suppose there's no signal there. I miss her.

uwi ka na.
=/

2005-03-22T17:59:00.000+08:00

2005-03-22T17:53:00.000+08:00

Goodbye Manila

Manila says goodbye to her. Haha. But only for a while. I'll miss her surely and i can't wait to be with her. =/ I FINALLY got my phone fixed. Gosh i can't live without a phone. Hmm. Plans for holy week? I'm not really sure with what my family wants. Prolly we'll just stay at home - i know it's boring. ARGH. She isn't replying. Gotta post something better next time, gotta hit the sack. Time to snooze a bit. ( i just woke up at 3.30 pm, and it's just 6 pm.)

check this out:
http://www.emotionalpunk.com

2005-03-21T05:02:00.000+08:00

Talo Si PACMAN. =/

Dissapointed and bruised, Pacman walks away. Sorry but I'm really a boxing afficionado. I have to say something about this, okay? I would really have to give the fight to El Terible who showed great footwork, power, patience and STRATEGY. Morales being a "witty" fighter, gained the edge against a brawl oriented Manny Pacquiao. The Headbutt Pacquiao sufferred changed everything, destroying his composure, confidence, and sight. The referee called it as a punch which I believe would remain controversial throughout the year. Morales won by decision 115 - 113 after giving everyone at the MGM grand a great show. Pacman acknowledges a rematch, after probably going through the prince, and once again, Marco Antonio Barrera who he beat last 2003. Pacquiao drops to 39 - 3 - 2 with a 30 KO record. Still impressive. Freddie Roach declared that the gloves Pacman used were "pillows", which Manny's promoter picked, upon Morales' request. If he had worn thinner, heftier gloves that he usually wore, he could have knocked El Terible with one punch, or possibly, the "manila ice". WTF is the manila ice? It's his secret weapon which did not really come out, - the RIGHT HOOK. Being a southpaw, Pacquiao is more inclined to use his Left, and peck using the right. But this time, he wanted to surprise the mexican. Too bad it didn't work out for him. I'd look forward to a rematch, but honestly speaking, if not for the CUT caused by the headbutt, i'd give this one to Pacquiao. Morales was dazed in some parts, but the cut was there to seal the right eye of manny, blood splurge everywhere leaving him with one eye left. Sorry im saying too much. :) haha.

Pacman - Little Mike Tyson (quoted by Iron Mike himself)

2005-03-21T04:49:00.000+08:00

THE POEM.

there's this maggot
who's acting like a faggot
hurting girls is his forte
i think what he wears is a panteh

a boy who i think is not
oh i'd love to give him a blod clot
his name sounds so ugly
that it should be changed to bambi

i want to hunt the big gay down
but QC is such a big town
i wish he'd drown in a lake of coupal'
as much as he's a big epal

i wish his cock would shrink
so that it would leave him to think
what he did was very unproper
acting like a faggotic loser

you still dont know who he is?
i wanna boil him with gallons of piss
and burn him high
till his blood turns dry.

FUCK YOU FAGGOT. TANGINA MO NAG IINET AKO SAYO.

2005-03-19T22:28:00.001+08:00

What do you think will be the outcome of Morales vs. Pacquiao?

Morales by KO. 19%

Morales by decision. 14%

Pacquiao by KO. 58%

Pacquiao by decision. 8%

Draw. 2%

2005-03-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

HBO POLL RESULTS:

What do you think will be the outcome of Morales vs. Pacquiao?
Morales by KO.
19%
Morales by decision.
14%
Pacquiao by KO.
58%
Pacquiao by decision.
8%
Draw.
2%

2005-03-19T19:50:00.000+08:00

THIS DAY SUCKS.

My girlfriend is leaving for davao on monday and i cannot even text or call her. The Reason? MY PHONE IS FUCKING BROKEN. I can't call her through the landline naman coz her dad's there. I can't even get to borrow a phone here, ginagamit lahat. Ash, Badjeng and I are about to go to a gig at coastbay baclaran in a couple of minutes, I'm waiting for them to arrive here. I've got no dough, man. Badtrip. This Day REALLY sucks. I had a facial yesterday, my face is as red as if it's Chinese New Year. Whapak. Hmmm.. I woke up at around 3 pm na, and i woke kat up. HEHEHE ^_^
She got pissed at first but things turned out alright in a while. My head hurts at the moment, and i don't know what to do to get my darn phone fixed. I asked my mom a few minutes ago if we could drop by any cellphone repair shop, but all i got were sermons and "bukas nalang" replies. *i miss you kat. :<, sorry.. * darn.

hush..

Hay. This Day SUCKS.

Onga pala.
Pacquiao Vs Morales tomorrow.

Betting on Pacman, 3rd round KO. :)

2005-03-18T03:15:00.000+08:00

But i adore her. Poison the Well.

2005-03-18T02:53:00.000+08:00

most guys, yeah! they do try their hardest to impress girls. the reason for that is most girls try their hardest to play games with guys. PAKIPOT! why? because they think it's cute. GIRLS are the reason why most guys do crazy things. when girls want some excitement, we give it to them. and then they say that it's too much. girls can never be satisfied. like i said in the my previous reply, they are very complicated.

ito ang dahilan kung bakit ayaw ko sa mga atenista:
read on. got this from atenista.net

tuwing nakakakita ako ng mga Tomasians, gusto kong isuka yung kinakain ko sa mukha nila. mga SOCIAL CLIMBERS talaga! feeling nila Atenean sila!hey, to all Tomasians, ang mga Atenean ay yung nagaaral sa "THE ATENEO" hindi sa UST!!! huwag kayong magpanggap na Atenista dahil hindi kayo nababagay sa "THE ATENEO"!!! jologs na jologs talaga kayo! walang jolog dito sa "THE ATENEO"!!! bawal ang jologs sa "THE ATENEO"!!!

2005-03-18T01:53:00.000+08:00

"Don't Leave"

I wanna say so much

but I don't want you to leave

I wanna touch your heart with mine

I want you to know I'm on your side

and it's easy to pretend,that everything's alright

it's not easy to let go

of the things you thought you'd always know

just don't run away tonight

don't leave..believe me

there's so much more then this, so much more then this

don't leave..believe me

there's a voice calling out your name, calling out your name until you're..

and everyone said so much

without saying anything

emtpy words fill the air

and it's hard to tell who really cares

and it's easy to pretend that everything's alright

it's not easy to let go of the things you thought you' d always know

it's time to walk with open eyes

and don't leave..believe me

there's so much more then this, so much more then this

and don't leave, believe me

2005-03-17T18:04:00.000+08:00

nagtataka pa rin ako..

pano sya nakaka alis..

got the hots for teachers?

yeah.

2005-03-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

I've been busy doodling since Kat's not home, i've got no nothing to do. She went jamming with her bandmates (well, i thought she couldn't go out - but what the heck.) It's okay though. It's always okay. HAY. I have to pick my ass up coz i have to go to church in a couple of minutes. I wanna lay here at home coz it's pretty cold, and my mind is on relax-tulog-baboy mode. I woke up at around 4 already. And still, i wanna sleep. What a pig. My girlfriend and I had some problems this morning (early morning at that) and it got fixed naman when morning came (morning as in may araw na). I know she really loves me.. HEHEHE :) I have to find a way to make excuses why i couldn't go to church, nakakatamad talaga. Sunday Nalang.

2005-03-17T17:44:00.000+08:00

Would you be depressed?

If I attend that wedding, but only as a guest?

Such an unfaithful bride draped in dress..

Spun with threads of my regret..

2005-03-17T17:41:00.000+08:00

don't let me down..

we'll find a way to make it go away..

i love you kat*.

2005-03-17T02:58:00.000+08:00

LAFTRIP.

lam mo ba kung sino crush ko?
hindi.
gusto mo hulaan?
(hello, laki talaga ng problema ng taong 'to ahh...)
ano, sige na... i can give clues...
bahala ka...
(wala talagang magawa sa buhay, bigla na lang sumusulpot...)
dali na, sino?! sigurado ako di ka maniniwala e...
list of people... (iiling siya... nope, nope, not thaaaat one...)
uy sige, alis na ko ha...
Sige na nga, sabihin ko na sayo...
(wow, ano 'to, utang na loob ko pa...)
Ayan o, nakatayo sa harap ko... hindi nga niya mahulaan kung sino crush ko e...
.............
Taaaaaaaaaakte!!!
(at a time na nalaman niyang we had a \"common\" friend...)
Ummm...tanong mo sa kanya, sigurado kilala ako nun..
okaay...
close kami nun e...
ahh..
ikaw na rin bahala kung paano mo ko ipapakilala, yung relationship natin...

^-~ sayang, kala ko kaibigan ko na dati e... tsk tsk tsk...
*swallows hard* Lord, gabayan mo ako...

2005-03-17T02:48:00.000+08:00

i'm talking to kat right now. I'm happy. :)
*i love you.*

2005-03-16T16:18:00.000+08:00

2005-03-16T04:33:00.000+08:00

CUTE.

2005-03-16T04:24:00.000+08:00

i've always dreamed about something like THIS.

2005-03-16T03:50:00.000+08:00

firsts..

1. 1st time you tried smoking:- 6th grade

2. 1st alcoholic drink you had:- vodka tonic

3. 1st time you entered a bar:- never and never will

4. 1st award you received:- prep validiktoryan.. hanep

5. 1st hero:- heroine :)

6. 1st time you were sent to the principal for- tumae sa brip nung grade 1

7. 1st time you failed in school:- 3rd year highschool fuck chem

8. 1st college entrance exam you took:- ateneo

9. 1st teacher in college:- mr tarantula

10. 1st job:- novice hehe FUCK RAGNAROK

11. 1st crush in hi school:- michelle? haha. way back.

12. 1st person na binigyan mo ng flowers?- some girl.

13. 1st date:- chelsea?.. yeah. chelsea.

14.. 1st friend:- mamiiii

15. 1st kiss:- mamiiii

16. 1st movie you watched with a friend:- forgot. sicko.

17. 1st fight with a friend- grade 4?

18. 1st gift you received from a friend:- flips

19. 1st gift you gave to a friend:- a picture of us in a frame (exes suck)

20. 1st record you bought:- backstreet boys

21. 1st song you sang infront of many people:- back to you

22. 1st musical instrument you learned to- pianono

23. 1st concert you watched:- martin nyebera

24. 1st celebrity you saw in person:- kristina gonsales da tanduay white horse babe

25. 1st TV show you really liked:- home along da riles hahahahaha

26. 1st book you bought:- forgot..

28. 1st sport you played:- indoor basketball .. or should i say "in room?" lol hahaha ^_^

29. 1st sleepover:- kna bene ata

30. 1st terrible fight:- 4th year. FAG.

31. 1st prank:- dami na.. forgot.

32. 1st inaanak:- anak ni jeje.

33. 1st debut party you attended:- mmmmmmm.. when i was 11.

34. 1st time you spent the night alone?- everyday.. haha

35. 1st bestfriend:- ivan.

36. 1st wedding you attended:- kiddie.

37. 1st person who greeted you on your lastbirthday?- some ex i had who had her birthday too.

38. 1st friend in friendster?- mmm. barbin.

39. 1st time you got lost:- i was a kiddie.

40. 1st cellphone:- 5110

41. 1st cellphone ringtone:- nokia

42. 1st collection:- fhm (till now)

43. 1st time you felt proud of yourself:- pogi ako eh Hahahaha

44. 1st time you saw a ghost:- never

45. 1st rollercoaster ride:- grade skul..

46. 1st school you attended:- obmc greenhills

47. 1st friend you had when you entered:- wtf?

48. 1st ambition:- to be a reypissed :)

49. 1st boyfriend/girlfriend- past is past

50. First heartbreak:- again.. quit it.

51. First Fuck: 13

2005-03-16T03:38:00.000+08:00

Careless.

I went to fetch my mom at church around 9 pm. I forgot my phone leaving it underneath the covers of my bed. I thought it was only for a few minutes coz my mom didn't even mention anything about staying for long. When I got there, She suggested some restaurant near here that she wanted to slip into. We got home after dinner at around 10 past, and upon seeing my unused phone (that happens once in 1 year? lol) , i stumbled upon a furious girlfriend. Haha.
Sorry Kat. *wink*

I texted her (knowing how pissed she was), tried to call but there was no reply. Furious nga. Haha. ^_^ Anyways, after 2 hours of waiting, she finally showed up with a "bat ka tumawag"
text (still furious girlfriend). Haha. As usual it took me loads of time apologizing. Okay na den, after ten years. She had some paper to do for Law and she has to get up at around 6, just to type. Finals nya pero hindi pa nagaaral.

Right now, i wanna sleep na but i'm not sleeping. I chanced upon my favorite super heroes kalabog and bosyo on cinema one. HAHAHAHA. Laftrip.

*i miss youuuu. =(*
*smoochies.*
luv ya kat! *winkwink*

2005-03-16T03:32:00.000+08:00

From where i start:

1. Call me - mark.markie.abe.unggoy.ungas
2. What color of pants are you wearing right now? - green pang ermat looking boxers
3. What Are You Listening To Right Now? - from autumn to ashes - autumn's monologue
4. What Was The Last Thing You Ate?- New york Pizza c/o Yellow Cab
5. Do You Believe In Karma? - YES.
6. If You Were A Crayon, what color would you be?- red
7. How Is The Weather Right Now?- annoyingly humid
8. Last Person You Talked To On The Phone? - my kat.. (i am still.)
9. Do You Like The Person Who Sent You This? - forgot..
10. How Are You Today? - okay lang..
11. Favorite Drink? - kam :) (gets mo lol)
12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? - Red Horsy
13. Favorite Sports - basminton (basketball - badminton)
14. Hair Color? - black
15. Eye Color? - bwown..
16. Favorite Band? - funeral for a friend, from autumn to ashes.. etc etc etc im too lazy to fucken type :)
17. Favorite Actor & Actress? - Elisha Cuthbert (tangina - HOT), jennifer lee @_@ ZHANG ZI YHI :)
18. Favorite Months?- december
19. Favorite Food?- Chinese Food
20. Last Movie You Watched? - the aviator
21. Favorite Day of the Year? - Fridays
23. What Was Your Favorite Toy As A Child? - little dicky ipasok mo motel game
24. Summer or Winter?- winter pare..
25. Hugs Or Kisses? - kisses. wait. i mean.. smooches. :)
26. Chocolate Or Vanilla? - vanilla repa.
27. What Is Under Your Bed? - boy stuff. You know.. ^_^
28. Friend You Have Had The Longest? - ivan. since nursery. obmc.
29. What Did You Do Yesterday? - talked to kat all day.
30. Favorite Smells?- Bvlgary .. :)
31. Who Inspires You? - katrina. ^_^
32. What Are You Afraid Of? - losing #12
33. Plain, Buttered Or Salted Popcorn? - bbq
34. favorite flower? - bumumuka na bulaklak :) eehehehehehe
35. Number Of Keys On Your Key Ring? - 4. 1 for house. 1 for room. 2 for cars.
36. Favorite Days Of The Week? - fridays and saturdays
37. Thing in your wallet you wont be showing? Pics ko ang The Raincoat :)*******

1. 1st time you tried smoking:-- 12
2. 1st alcoholic drink you had:-- vodka tonic
3. 1st time you entered a bar:-- 13
4. 1st award you received:-- horny boy award
5. 1st hero:-- super kalabog and the giant bulkan
6. 1st time you were sent to the principal for disciplinary actions:-- second grade.
7. 1st goal you accomplished:-- goal? soccer? LOL!!! haha. i don't play soccer.
8. 1st crush?-- Carmina Lim? tama ba? way back grade 2? haha.
9. 1st person whom you gave flowers:-- some chinky eyed girl 6 years back
10.1st friend:-- my mamiii ^^
11.1st kiss:-- some girl
12. 1st record you bought:-- backstreet boys - black and blue HAHAHAHA
13. 1st song you sang infront of many people-- john mayer's back to me
14. first musical instrument you learned to play:-- piano
15. 1st local&foreign concert you watched:-- mmmmmmm... local: martin nievera when i was 5 haha foreign: stephen speaks
16. last fuck:-- NO COMMENT

2005-03-15T18:10:00.000+08:00

I feel dizzy. Kat got mad (I think) at me coz i kept on forcing her to sleep. Well, She sleeps 2 hours a day because of me. What are the effects? She easily gets sick and gets dizzy most of the time. I just care.

i miss her. =/
she' sleeping.

2005-03-15T05:40:00.000+08:00

Oh why cant I be what you need
a new improved version of me
but i'm nothing so good no i'm nothing
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
i beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you
I break in two And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you dont see me, you dont...

here i'm in between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
where im tossing and tortured til dawn
by you, visions of you then youre gone
the shock lifts the red from my face
when i hear someone's taking my place
how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel
when all, all that i did was for you

you don't know me.

2005-03-15T05:25:00.000+08:00

your time is up and im squandered here
broken day syndrome starts on friday
can you hear me now? i hope i don't have to be as good as you.

turning promises into black and white
empty words, broken hearts and stolen shots
saying goodbye is always the same
say to me, speak softly now.

im lost with every moment now,
wish you told me you meant it.
nibble my ear. nibble my ear.